I Stand, Quite Alone

An Age of Words

Poems by Paul Newlin

I stand, quite alone

I stand, quite alone,

If only I could speak to you,

Tell you how I feel.

If only the words of love

That I have, could perhaps

Belong to you.

You are my dream,

For both day and night

I feel you beside me.

Nothing I do can make

The need I have of you

Go away.

How can I say

To the one I need more

Than life itself

That I long for a touch,

To know that you can

Be with me.

If I write this song

Can I sing it softly for you alone -

Tell you how I feel ?

If only the words of love

I have could also be

Sung by you.

I need you more each day

Quiet streams, deep emotions

Waiting

Wish for you to be by my side

Your hand in mine

Comforting

Taking away the hurt.

Like the wind, not seen

Hoping

Need you to lift me up

Your eyes on mine looking

Understanding

Smoothing waters of agony.

Baby crying, alone

Loving

Want you to care for me

Touch my lips, giving voice

Listening

Giving a mind of peace.

Stormy Seas, wild thoughts

Stilling

Before the quietness of your love

I do not demand but nevertheless

Cry out

I need you more each day.

Taking a walk with you

I see your face

The moon rising

Shining the waters

Of my heart.

Aphrodite

Resting your touch on my mind

I love you

Goddess of my life.

Let me take your hand

And let us walk

The sands of the islands

Of the night.

And let me look in your eyes

Like sapphires in gold

To thrill in love

In the night.

Golden hair, blown veil,

Brushes my face -

Moon silver

How beautiful you are.

Let my lips

Touch so gentle

Holding you close

In the night.

Let our feet

Walk the paths

Of lovers gone -

Whispering silence.

My Aphrodite

Resting your touch on my mind

I love you

Tonight.

I whisper to you - my child.

Whispering your name

I come to you

My child

Gently asking you

To let me take your life

And make it over anew.

I know that you struggle and fight

Within yourself

I know that you want to love me

But you find it so hard -

Believe in me again

And I'll make it over anew.

Don't you think

That I don't understand ?

I know your problems

And I know the answers too -

Just give them all to me -

You don't need to worry any more.

Don't be ashamed.

I know you don't

Like to be who you are

But that's not the real you -

The one I want is deep inside -

Don't be ashamed.

You are a failure,

But let me have it all

And together, you and I,

It won't matter anymore.

Didn't anybody tell you -

With me you have all you need.

Whispering your name

I come to you

My child,

Gently asking you

To let me take your life

And make it over anew.

Loneliness

How it has crept

like dark clouds

hanging on the horizon

but immutably moving on,

blotting out

every sense of joy

that was my life.

Trapped, ensnared,

the net, strong,

a voice, mine, cries out

"I want to be free"

but no one hears

and I remain

there's no escape.

Will no one hear ?

Will no one understand ?

I wish to be free,

I want to talk

I want to belong -

free from the darkness,

let me go.

If clouds could go

and the net be broke

I could live

every sense of joy

that was my life

and no more thought

of..... loneliness.

I Need You

Lord, I look to your face

Wishing for that smile of yours

To look upon me again

Just as you did to those you loved

Those years long ago.

How oft I turn away

And rather walk in wilderness, alone,

Than live in your land

With you beside me

Caring as I near the light of Light.

I need that love of yours

That I may worship you again

That I may live for you again

Giving you the glory

And not for myself alone.

Heal my heart, purify my mind,

To kneel in your presence

Day after day, feeling your touch

Lifting me higher in the

Spirit of your love.

Lord Change My Life

Sifting through the

Ashes of my mind

Looking for that

Which I have lost;

Trying to remember when

Life was more

Than just a dream that

Fades with the dawn.

Can it be possible

That there is more

Than existence in a world

Where hope a futile grasp ?

Is a Son whose life

Love drenched the soil

More great than the

Meanderings of my mind ?

Why can I not give up

The powerful me that will not allow

The Son rays lighting

The caverns of my mind ?

Lord, make me to be willing

To be willing to let You

Change existence

Into Life.

Joy beautiful.

touch and

the chrysalis breaks

wings spread - dove flight

peace to fly the Son rays

joy beautiful.

released

no longer crawl

raised to love to live

no secret but Son light

joy beautiful.

low

now a prince

rejected but chosen

changed to glory

joy beautiful.

rise

above the things

that used to be death sad

into wind blown - Spirit fire

joy beautiful.

touch and

the chrysalis breaks

wings spread - dove flight

peace to fly the Son rays

joy beautiful.

I See Him Standing There

With my mouth I sing in worship

And my ears hear His word,

I lift my hands in adoration,

I see Him standing there.

And as I stand in the Light

Of His beaming Love

Remembering the shedding of His Blood

I see Him standing there.

And as He takes my hands

I feel the nail prints

My heart lifts with joy as I am His,

I see Him standing there.

Oft I wander far away

Yet, as I realise and say "Lord"

The wonder and the joy as

I see Him standing there.

Oh that I would always walk

Hand in hand with my Saviour

For He always loves me and wishes

I saw Him standing there.

The Light

Sky upward reaching

Flower blossom like

Seeking the Light.

Come take my heart,

Rebuild it, mould it,

To love shape, love beat.

Take my mind and

Straighten crooked paths

Of confusion stride my brain.

Star spanning open

Spaces of darkness

Seeking the Light.

Take my feet

And point the walking

In the Lighter Way,

Take my voice

Tongue sword,

Words you say.

Son loving.

Goal strike.

Pointing to the Light.

Lord I come to you

Lord I come to you,

Lay my life before you,

Asking you for peace

And for joy.

Lord I am stubborn and

I don't want to say "I will"

But when you call so gently

Can I but love ?

And when your love

Flows through me

Nothing I can do

But kneel before your throne,

Even then I know

When tomorrow comes

I'm sure to reject the Son of God.

Why, why do you love me ?

Lord I come to you,

Lay my life before you,

Asking you for peace

And for joy.

As the days go by

I find you are there

Gently leading me

Along the road I must go,

And when I stumble

As oft I do

It's your hand, outstretched, lovingly

That raises me up.

Lord I come to you,

Lay my life before you,

Asking you for peace

And for joy.

I love you,

Yes, I love you.

I know that you love me,

Yes, I know that you love me.

My Lord, my Master, my King!

My mouth, my heart does sing!

As He takes my life to His -

What rejoicing is this!

God is no longer an abstract thing,

Jesus, no longer a hymn to sing,

The Spirit is real -

On my heart - His seal!!

No more world for me

For heaven is where I'll be,

And though deepest Lucifer does cry -

I say, "Begone, you lie!"

I know great surety,

In Christ, security.

In the Spirit there's peace

In God - love, love, love.

So great a love has He

That He sent His Son

To die for me,

And greater love has no man, for me.

Joy to be free,

Free of the world,

Heir to love

Shackled by joy.

Lord with

I always want to be,

Living for you

Day by day.

My selfish will - I want no part,

Peaceful Spirit rest impart,

Love flows

Outward shows!

A never ending song this could be

With You - eternity

Just to praise

My Lord, my Master, my King!

Lord, your music of life ....

Yours words are playing merry music,

It goes round and round

And the pains that used to be

Disappear, and a new day

Dawns, and a new melody

Welcomes me on my way.

The discord that wrecked my life

Seems to melt away

With your new melody

Filter into a brand new harmony

Which my life sings and plays

In simple symphony.

And now I understand

That all the people around

Are all part of a big big band

And the leader of the band

Is a friend I love to know

And he's playing beautiful harmony.

I need Time ....

I have found Time

Not a very gentle lover,

More a coarse and vulgar

Companion through the moments

Of my life.

Yet I stand in the need of Time,

For the fleeting stardust of

Each joy and happiness,

Strings of my heart in search

Of my life.

Sunstar and moonstar

Rotate around the stillness,

Tingling gold and silver

Through the beauty of the love

Of my life.

Mind, gather these illusions,

Treasure their plunder,

And grow, bring the faith flowers

Overwhelming the solitude and quietness

Of my life.

In all of this, give me Time

Oh Creator of this expanse,

That I may blossom with

The love of your world

In my life.

Crawling, Scrambling

Crawling, scrambling through the narrow curving

bending, twisting passages, ever bringing me further

and further into the depths of the darkness of my mind.

The passages have been hewn by hand, the rough edges

jutting out in the darkness, knocking me down,

bruising and scratching me.

But I cannot stop, I have to go on, never getting

anywhere but never getting nowhere.

All is confusion, like a jigsaw thrown on the floor.

I just land up back where I started but I cannot stop,

I must continue on, crawling and scrambling through these

dark passages until I fall never to rise again.

Then finally the darkness will close over me and now I

will never get anywhere having got nowhere at all.

The Storm

A little cloud appears on the horizon,

a rumble, and feel the breaze

it ruffles my hair,

but nothing can stop it,

And on it comes getting

Bigger and darker,

What can I do?

I can do nothing,

I do not rule the storm.

A Flash,

The pain,

The rain,

The tears.

The wind,

my life,

What can I do?

I can do nothing

I do not rule the storm.

The sun appears, just for a second,

And I sigh, and I hope,

My Love appears

And the storm and the pain

That is my life

Begins to disappear

And together, my Love and I,

We see the sun and the sky,

All that is, except for a little cloud

On the horizon.

Always There - in my mind

Love is my ever present dream,

And when I turn around

You're always standing there -

Why can't I forget you

When love means so little to you?

A man needs a woman,

And as a fish needs the sea,

As the flowers need the rain,

So my love, can't you see

That I need you?

As the wind ruffles my hair

So my heart jumps

And my mind twists and turns,

Still you are there, I can see

Nothing else but you, my love.

In my mind, I see

You, my love, so clearly

I see the two of us

Living and loving -

But in reality - you are not there.

Where are you?

Can't you see that

I need you?

Couldn't you please,

Love me, as I love you?

Please don't deny me again.

How can you stand there

Telling me that I'm wrong

I'm looking for the peace that

Your love can bring

Please don't deny me again.

I look at your eyes

I hear your voice

I'm beginning to understand

What love is all above

Please don't deny me again.

I've tried many things

To turn the dark loneliness

Into a bright new happiness

Could I have found it

Please don't deny me again.

No matter how the days might pass

Or how the night drags by

I will never forget

That I have seen in you

A forever in a touch of your light.

A Love Song for the Ages

Come to me, my love,

Let me put my arms around you,

Look into your eyes

And tell you,

Very gently,

I love you.

This is peace, my love,

You tell me that you'll always be

And your love that

Flows from you

Warms my heart

Comforting.

Don't you know that

When you hurt inside

My heart aches too,

Never forget that

I took to me

Your heart.

Years will go by

And love will look on,

And peace will stay

By our side

As we love each other

Day by day.

What is love?

It is not something

That can be laughed at!

Love stands for caring,

Caring that the other is happy

And trying to make life easier

When the going is tough.

Love stands for sharing

Sharing the sad times

As well as those that are happy.

And sharing each others burdens

When the other is low

And heavy hearted.

Love stands for knowing,

Knowing that you'll always be there

And knowing that you'll be behind me

When the world stands before me.

Love is together,

Being together now and in the future,

Being together in tears and joy.

We are together in LOVE.

I Love You

Without you I feel so lonely,

Some people say that love

Is an abstract feeling

But how can it be

When I feel like this?

I need you to be there,

To comfort me and show you care,

I love you and I wish I could die.

Can't you even think about me

Even for a little while,

Feel the love like the way

I feel love for you?

Now there is no one to love me,

I feel so lonely now.

I'm scared now,

There is no shoulder to cry on,

No one to feel the love I have,

I'm an empty hole that can't be filled.

I need you to be there

To comfort me and show you care,

I love you and wish I could die.

I look at you,

And all that I can do

Is love you.

I cry within myself,

For it seems that all is lost.

My sorrow knows no bounds

For the one I love

Is blind to me.

Open your eyes

And open your mind;

My love, surely you

Can find it in you

To love me?

For I look at you

And all that I can do

Is love you.

Like a fire burning in the night

I see your face -

You brighten the darkness around me,

You warm my heart grown so cold.

Oh shaft of joy, flame of love

Rising higher - your life

Painting patterns deep within my mind

Lighting up a life that is once more.

I see the fuel heaped up so high -

Can it ever grow cold

When you're with me - comforting

Like a fire burning in the night.

Like a fire burning in the night

I see your face -

You brighten the darkness around me -

You warm my heart grown so cold.

Can't you see, my friend

Can't you see, my friend,

Are you really so blind?

Can't you see where you're going?

Are you really so blind?

Can't you see, my friend,

That you're on the road

That leads to destruction?

Oh can't you see, my friend?

There is a way

Only one way, my friend.

That leaves away from the road

That leads to destruction.

The way starts at the cross

Where the son of man died

So turn off the road

That leads to destruction.

When you reach the cross

You will see a road

It is straight and narrow

But it leads away from destruction.

Please? ? ?

I feel life slowly ebbing

From my mind,

Can't think so straight

Anymore.

Beautiful nights

Don't seem quite the same

I look for you but don't know

Anymore.

Living is narrow channels of

Dark sewers

Think I'm afraid of you

Evermore.

Lower and lower I fall and

The line of life disappears

Further out of reach

Evermore.

Don't think I'm happy

For who can be

Swirling in the depths

Evermore.

Would like to think

That you could give me

Some scent of peace for

Evermore.

Time is slipping by and

I can't see -

Lord I need you so much,

Come to me?

Break The Chains of Life

How it has crept

Like dark clouds

Hanging on the horizon

But immutably moving on

Blotting out

Every sense of joy

That was my life.

Trapped, ensnared;

The net, strong;

A voice cries out

"I want to be free"

But no one hears

And I remain and there's

No escape.

Will no one hear?

Will no one understand?

I wish to be free

I want to talk.

I want to belong -

Free me from the darkness -

Let me go.

If clouds could go

And the net be broke

I could live

Every sense of joy

That was my life

And no more thoughts

Of ...... loneliness.

Show Me ....

Lord, I'm searching,

Searching for the way that is right,

The way that I can feel