“I’ve Seen I AM
Now I Know Whose I am!
Now I Know That I am Loved!”
How do we receive the love He offers us?
The title of this article is that of Jonathan David Helser’s beautifully anointed song.
Bask in the Presence of your Savior whose love for you led Him to died in your place, and arise to new life so that you, too, might have eternal life!
Lyrics:
I looked into the eyes of a lion
Felt the courage in his gaze
I heard him roar my name with passion
As I buried my tears in his mane
I looked into the eyes of a lamb
I saw love face to face
I felt grace destroy my sin
As mercy flowed from his veins
I've seen I AM, now I know that I am loved
I've seen I AM, now I know who I am
I looked into the eyes of a king
I saw the beauty of holiness
I heard the voice of many waters
As worship poured from my lips
I've seen I AM, now I know that I am loved
I've seen I AM, now I know who I am
I looked into the eyes of a savior
I saw a love stronger than death
I kissed the scars that bought my freedom
As I laid my head on his chest (John 13)
Free worship--Words partly sung, mostly spoken, to beautiful music:
I saw you Jesus (Yahushua),
When I saw Your eyes, I felt your smile
Maybe it was just a dream, but I believe it was more than reality
You walked right through my walls
All I could do was worship; all I could do was weep
I saw my King!
All I could do God was take off my shoes and bow, and kneel
I fall down like a dead man
But I’m more alive than I’ve ever been
Oh God I fall at your feet like a dead man
I know, I know, I’m loved, I am loved! (repeated several times)
I am loved by the I AM
Thus the song of my bones
Oh Lord I want to hear a generation
Find out who You really are
I want to see a generation fall into Your heart
No more lies, no more fears
I have seen I AM; now I know that I am loved
Jeremiah 31:3: “Yahuwah appeared to me from afar saying, `Yes! I have loved you with an everlasting love, therefore with loving kindness I have drawn you.”
FromJohn 10:14-17: “I am the good Shepherd and I know Mine and Mine know Me, even as the Father knows Me and I know the Father. And, I lay down My life for the sheep…I lay down My life in order to receive it again. No one takes it from, I lay it down by Myself. I have authority to lay it down, and I have authority to receive again.”
John 13:1: “And before the Festival of the Passover, Yahushua, knowing that His time had come that He should move out of this world unto the Father, having loved His own who were in the world, He loved them to the end.”
John14:19: “Yet a little while, the world will no longer see Me but you will see Me, because I live, you will live also.”
Descending in Order to Ascend:
He wants to set you on high with Him – in His Presence
On March 20, 2016 Derek wrote:
“We go through things in our lives for the purpose of making what He wants known in the earth a reality! How else will others experience His great mercy and forgiveness if we do not first experience itourselves?When we look at our sufferings and trials this way, then as we come through them, they actually produce in us the higher purpose for which they were intended.Our trial may become someone else’s deliverance! That is why we cannot give up our perseverance through our sufferings.
Ourdescent (lowering)into the sufferings and trials we go through in our lives is for theascent (rising)of His higher purposes.Little do people know that the words of Messiah when He said--“If I be lifted up, I will draw all men unto Me”--truly means that for Him to be lifted up means that our lives must be lowered down. If our hearts are not bowed low, Messiah cannot be lifted high in the presence of the world. The question lies in this—who do you want men to see?That really is the question.
Derek refers to revelation that Abba gave me during the night of Shabbat, March 19th, as Abba taught me in my sleep, and then after I woke up during the middle of the night. So, I wrote down what He was saying.How do we receive the love that He offers? Like Messiah did, we must descend in order to ascend.
Here are some of my notes:
Yochanan the baptizer said: “No man is able to receive anything unless it is given to him from heaven. You yourselves are witnesses for me that I said, `I am not the Messiah, but I am sent ahead of Him.’ He that has the Bride is the Bridegroom, but the friend of the Bridegroom who stands and hears Him rejoices greatly because of the voice of the Bridegroom. So this joy of mine is complete. It is right for Him to increase, and for me to decrease.” (John 3:27-30; Mark 2:18-20) Like the core-group of Yahushua’s disciples, Yochanan (John) the baptizer will be an attendant at the wedding feast of Yahushua and His Bride. Yochanan knew that in order for Messiah to be exalted and fulfill what He Abba had given Him to do, he had to decrease and allow Messiah to increase. The only way we can really know who we are “in Him,” is if we decrease our importance, and exalt Him to His importance!
Messiah descended into the heart of the earth before He ascended back into heaven. As He ascended He took those in Paradise with Him and heaven opened to receive the first fruits of the resurrection – Messiah and those with Him. (John 20:17; Ephesians 3:8-10)
The wicked spirits of hybrids, shades, descend but do not ascend. (Isaiah 26:14) The original Nephilim descended after the Flood. They have ascended for a short time--until their final judgment in the lake of fire. (Revelation 9, 16, and 20) Wicked humans descend into hell and ascend into the Presence of Yahuwah for judgment, then descend permanently into the lake of fire with the Beast, False Prophet, and Lucifer/Satan.
The world system under “the god of this world” says that we must ascend in wealth, power, authority, control, accumulation of material goods, and become “like gods.”Nimrod “became a Nephilim.” We have the privilege of humbling ourselves to allow the Spirit of Yahuwah to transform us into His nature, acting in His ways and thinking, so that we walk as children of light. He is transforming, disciplining, testing, and preparing a people for His praise! But, for Him to work in us to transform us so that we are like Him, we have to “die to self.” (Romans 6-8) In order to be transformed, we must trust Him totally with our lives. We must be quick to obey. In order to do that, we have to know Him well enough to trust Him. He has to know us well enough to trust us.
Yahuwah says we must descend (in humility and meekness, becoming like a little child in simple faith, contriteness, brokenness, being poor of spirit), and then He will exalt. (Isaiah 66:1-2)
At the death of Yahuwah’s children, the physical body descends into the earth, but the spirit body (soul and spirit) ascends into the Paradise on High – into heaven. At the coming of Messiah, the bodies of His set-apart ones are resurrected and transformed to once again house the spirit body in the 1st resurrection. (Matthew 24:29-31; John 5:25, 28-29; John 6:40; I Corinthians 15; I Thessalonians 4:13-18; Jude 1; Isaiah 26:19; Zechariah 14:1-5; Revelation 19)
John 11:25-26: “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though He were dead, yet shall he live. And whoever is living and believes in Me shall never die. Do you believe this?”
There is no death to the truly born again one –just a passing into life eternal. Death is separation--separation from our body and separation from our loved ones who are still on earth, but for those born again by Yahuwah’s Spirit, death is not separation from Him, who opened heavens gates for us! (Psalm 24)
*Iyob/Job 19:23-27, KJV: “Oh that my words were written! Oh that they were printed in a book – engraved with an iron pen and lead in the rock forever! For I know that my Redeemer liveth, and that He shall at the latter day upon the earth. And though, after my skin worms destroy this body, yet in my flesh I shall see God. Whom I shall see for myself, and my eyes shall behold, and not another, though my reigns (life force)be consumed within me.”
Powerful words! The book of Iyob is the oldest book in the Word, predating even the Torah. But, Iyob knew Elohim personally. He saw into the future. He saw the coming of Messiah and the rejoining of his dead body with his spirit body/soul and spirit.
Iyob 14:14-17, Iyob speaking: “If a man dies, will he live again? All the days of my struggle I wait until my change comes. You would call, I would answer You. You have yearned for the work of Your hands. For now, You count my steps. Do You not watch over (also) my sin? My transgression is sealed up in a bag, and You cover over my crookedness.”
Amazing! Iyob knew about the second coming of Messiah, his Redeemer, who would descend to earth and call for the bodies of His people to rise (i.e. Isaiah 26:19 and John 5:25, 28-29). He understood forgiveness and salvation by the blood of the lamb long before Exodus 12. He understood that because his sins were forgiven, he would rise to eternal life. Iyob understood the “change” at the resurrection of the just. Iyob had a personal relationship with Elohim. But, then, so did Enoch, who lived before the Flood of Noah’s day!
Philippians 2:5-11: Messiah humbled himself, laid aside His rights as Deity, and descended into flesh to die for us. “Let this mind be in you which was also in Messiah Yahushua, who being in the form of Elohim did not regard equality with Elohim something to be grasped at, but emptied Himself, taking the form of a servant, and came to be in the likeness of men. And having been found in fashion as a man, He humbled Himself and became obedient unto death, even death on the stake. Elohim, therefore, has highly exalted Him and given Him the Name which is above every Name, that at the Name of Yahushua every knee should bow, of those in heaven, and those on earth, and those under the earth, and every tongue should confess that Yahushua Messiah is Master, to the esteem of Elohim the Father.”
At His death Yahushuadescended into the earth. He preached to the souls in Paradise, and also took the keys of death and hell away from Satan in Hades. He set the example for us to be humble, to descend from pride and self-seeking, to submit in obedience to His Father. After He descended, He ascended for us into heaven. (Ephesians 2:4-6; Colossians 3:1-4; Revelation 1)
“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the Kingdom of heaven.” (Matthew 5:3)Ya’cob/James 2:4, KJV: “Hearken my beloved brethren, hath not God chosen the poor of this world, rich in faith,” and heirs of the Kingdom which He hath promised to them that love Him?”
I Kepha/Peter 5:5-6: “…gird yourself with humility towards one another, for `Elohim resists the proud but gives favor to the humble.’ Humble yourselves, then, under the mighty hand of Elohim, so that He exalts you in due time. Cast all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you.”
Isaiah 66:1-2: “Thus says Yahuwah, `The heavens are My throne and the earth is My footstool…and all these things My hand has made, and all these that exist,’ declares Yahuwah. `Yet, to such a one I look: On him who is poor and bruised of spirit, and who tremble at My Word.’ ”
Isaiah 57:15: “For thus declares the High and Exalted One who dwells forever, whose Name is set-apart: `I dwell in the high and set-apart place, with him who has a bruised and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble, and to revive the heart of the bruised one.’ ”
Our loving heavenly Father is Shaddai, Elyon--the Almighty, the Most High. We are His most awesome creation. But, unless we pass the humbling test of Iyob, we cannot dwell in His lofty Presence! After 60 questions that Yahuwah personally asked Iyob, he finally realized “He is Elohim, I am not.” He has to crush our pride and arrogance, our self-sufficiency in which we trust, and bring us into humble submission to His will. If we do not allow Him to do this, but rebel, become stubborn and stiff-necked, He sadly will let us reap what we sow. We must descend before He will lift us up!
Grapes must be crushed to make wine. Olives must be crushed to make olive oil.It is the submission and humbling of ourselves before the Creator that causes Him to look to us and be proud of us, so that He raises us up. He will take down the proud forever. In Isaiah 2, He speaks to the prideful religious and non-religious.
Ezekiel 17:24: “`And all the trees of the field shall know that I, Yahuwah, have brought down the high tree and exalted the low tree, dried up the green tree and made the dry tree to flourish. I, Yahuwah, have spoken, and shall do it.’ ”
This is what He is doing now with each person on earth – separating out the proud and haughty, those that reject His discipline and right to rule their lives from the small remnant FEW whom He will exalt forever. He is a Father more than a “God.” He longs to have you near Him as His child. But, He is light. Therefore, in order to receive of all He has for us, we must humble ourselves like a little child.
Daniel 12:2-3, in context of the day of Messiah’s return: “…and many who sleep in the dust of the earth shall wake up, some to everlasting life, and some to reproaches and everlasting abhorrence. And those who have insight shall shine like the brightness of the expanse, and those who lead many to righteousness like the stars forever and ever.” [“Sleep’ in the dust is a Hebrew idiom for death and burial of the body]
We are in spring time--the season of Passover. Let us read His Word carefully, learning what Yahushua did for us as the “Lamb of Elohim.” Psalm 22 speaks of His death for us, as well as Isaiah 53, and many other Scriptures in the Tenach (Hebrew Scriptures). Let us fall in love with Him all over again, and receive of His love for us.
What does this have to do with “I’ve seen I AM – Now I know whose I am, Now I know that I am loved!”
Once we humble ourselves to see Him as He really is – outside of religion and man-made theology, dogmas, rituals, and the traditions of men, we can easily fall in love with our precious, and very real, Beloved One.I also encourage you to read the books of John,Ephesians, Philippians, and Colossians. Only the humble, who have descended that He might be exalted, know it means to “see the I AM.”
I highly recommend that you listen to this beautiful song several times. When we realize what we have been saved out of, and how He looks at our sin against Him, we fall on our faces weeping because of His mercy for us! No matter how nice a person might think they are, He sees the intents of the heart. We can’t hide from Him. Yet, He chose us before the foundation of the world to be with Him forever. How great is His love!
In 2003, the day after Passover, Shabbat, I was in Jerusalem. It had been 38 years of suffering and pain for me from 1965, which caused me to make life-destroying decisions. I had received a lot of healing because of all my studying, teaching, writing, and going to nations on assignment for my Master, but the past was still there and the enemy liked to bring it up in the most cruel ways. I was out walking around the gates of the Old City. I wanted to take pictures of the ruins of Bethesda, slightly north of the Temple Mount. I walked into the ruins area. Their caretaker was the Church of St. Anne. As I walked towards the ruins, Yahushua spoke to me: “After 38 years.” I had known His lovely baritone voice since I was four years old. I knew what He meant--after I did some quick mental math. I broke out sobbing very hard. I was walking around the gates with a very hateful young lady who literally despised me, as she told me later, for my relationship with Abba. She was waiting for me, so I quickly made my way to the entrance of the Roman “medicine pools” where Messiah went to heal the man after 38 years (John 5). As we reached the entrance, I looked up and saw Yahushua standing, looking at me. I knew who He was--Yahushua. I stared at Him for a few seconds, then He made a low sweeping motion with His hands towards the entrance, as in “welcome.” The lady I was with was furious when I told her I saw Him. She reminded me that the ruins were a pagan Roman ritual bath. The Romans believed that an angel stirred the waters, and whoever got there first got healed. Through my tears, I reminded her that Messiah came into those pagan ruins to set one man free. The man Messiah went for had no one to help him into the waters, so after 38 years he was still laying by the pool helplessly trying, crying out for help. I walked slowly through the ruins. Bright red poppies bloomed between the stones. As I left, I heard Him say what He said to that man nearly 2000 years ago: “Go and sin no more.” I left there totally free! In that short time, He erased 38 years of hurt and pain, and it never came back. Once you’ve seen “I AM,” you know whose you are, and that you are loved. You don’t have to see Him with your physical eyes. You can see Him with your spirit as you reach out to touch Him with your love! He doesn’t love me any more than He loves you! Reach out to Him this Spring/Passover season!