Yesterday
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Reflection for the Day
As the doubter tries the process of prayer, he would do well to add up the results. If he persists, he'll almost surely find more serenity, more tolerance, less fear, and less anger. He'll acquire a quieter courage----the kind that isn't tension-ridden. he'll be able to look at "failure" and "success" for what they really are. Problems and calamity will begin to mean his instruction, instead of his destruction. He'll feel freer and saner.
Have wonderful and unaccountable things begun to happen to me in my new life?
Today I Pray
Through prayer, communion with a Higher Power, may I begin to see my life sort itself out. May I become less tense, more sane, more open, more courageous, more loving, less tangled in problems, less afraid of losing, less afraid of living. May I know that God, too, wants these things for me. May God's will be done.
Today I Will Remember
Be still and know that He is God.
Dave of Beckenham / Email5/09/05
Last Day Gambled 1992 August
Location Calgary just for today
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My name is Dave of Beckenham I am a compulsive Gambler and will be till the day I DIE! But today I am able to be far more than just that? I have learned that on entering GA I had a very immature attitude. I had the adult body but acted immaturely. Hence always felt younger than my age. It was the way I behaved? Now if some one told me I had to do ...? I use to do the opposite. I reacted badly to discipline all my life. One day I had the fortunate opportunity to meet with one of the highest authorities in her Majesty forces. I was curious why they used brain washing to their men? Example clean a large area of flooring with a tooth brush? Insane I thought at the time. The gentleman explained it was not brain washing. The forces helped misguided youngsters to become men with a self discipline that would one day save their own and others people lives. Why he asked me did people ask for ex service men to employ? Because they ha built up their own self discipline. Routine set for life? In recovery I entered GA with poor self discipline. Bad habits and an attitude? Road blocks tend to make you think your life is becoming limited? But they make you think of alternative path that day. To change bad habit into a good habit? Now if all I did was sit in cul de sac all day? Was I changing my path? I use to rebel against change in my life. Now I have so many choices in my life? Recovery is a new beginning not an end? As one door closes another opens? It is strange that I am meeting counselor before picking mum up from air port? It happened that way before? Coincidence yet again? Or recovery working its way into my life? Shirley & I are talking of forth coming event? Good thing to? We worked well today yet did too much. I feel I do not have a choice some times. I enjoy watching 24 lots. Bit like Saturday morning pictures in the old days. Having to wait till next week? Am I sick or what? Time scale of things to do coming into order. I made decision to trust trades man with doing work on our home. Yet apprehensive? Surrender is good? Talked to some one about San Diego this October. Not sure I can justify cost for such a short time from here? Need to think that one out if I am being selfish? Shirley is pleased with new seat she bought. I assembled it assurprise for her. I know I should have shown her how to do it? Next time? LOL. Shirley loves her gardening. I try hard to encourage her. I telephoned Mark my son and told him how much I enjoyed games with him. We got worried I nearly got even with him? But I must say it was best playing we had done in a long time. Mind you over 25 games is excessive? Buy you know some thing it was quality time.I even told him of my nightmare which was with us both in it. He laughed? Game might have cost money but may I say money well spent. A good investment? Shirley takes note of how I deal with people. I try my best to be graceful in dealing with people. Considerate to their feelings. What faith of hope do I hold today? I would like to think evenly matched. I had a few cusses today yet they were short loved. Started raining as I was moving some things. Test of my serenity? LOL. Life is worth living today? To think on 2 occasions one suicide attempt and one time I stopped breathing 3 times, my life could have been terminated. Did I learn from those occasions? I would like to think so. The last thing now is to take my own life because I value my life with people who love me around me. That last bet could have cost me more than I could have afforded? Shirley & I often balance each other out. Those volatile times seem a life time away now. What can a bet give me that I do not have already today? Why risk what I have got now? Some might think that I am a boring old fart? I agree! Yet I would prefer to be who I am today than who I use to be? Love to all. Dave
5/09/05
Last Day Gambled 8-11-04
Location Michigan
My Time Zone EST
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HI EVERYONE, This is Marilyn G and I am a compulsive gambleron the road to recovery. Just stopping by to say Goodnight to all my fellow Hubsters. I had a usual Monday busy at work so am tired tonight. I have been spending quite some time speaking to God about my feelings and fears for this week-end. I know I will be ok, as "He has promised to be with us, never to leave us or forsake us". I am learning more everyday here atthe Hub, and can not express myself enough to thank everyone for their posts and support. We have started with a solid foundation now which is step 1 and we will keep building ourrecovery each day as we go. We all have a past, but we also have a future, we just have to get past the past.
Welcome Newcomers. WTGthose reaching milestones.
Goodnight and God's Peace,
Marilyn G
Sandra R /gams55/09/05
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GOOD EVENING ALL RCG'S ..
" Milestones today" ...Congratulations.
"To all who haven't placed a bet in the last 24 "...
"To all who won't be placing a bet in the next 24 "...
HI Sandra R here I am a compulsive gambler and today with my HIGHER POWERS help 'Jesus' NO Bets were placed...
"... < I can't say I am happy to see the expressions being spoken of on the posting board. Don't know what to say really. Maybebecause have some issues here in my own backyard to clear up ....Like they Say First things first. ....Can't get involved with the ''Power struggle and Head Games.'''. Have them playing out ...... in my neck of the Woods. Makes my brain sore and Heart 'Heavy' though.
''''1st step. '''''''' applies here for me. Amen. going to apply.
'''Gnite all Hubsters ...... GRab the Rope of HOpe. ''''.
Love yah all in a very Special way. ....
Sandra R /gams5....a grateful hubster.
vb5/09/05
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(((Charlie P))), serving up a slice of humble pie for pooty.
Joanne35 / Email5/09/05
Last Day Gambled may 1st 2005
Location Canada
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Just wishing everyone a good day tomorrow, and tucking in, with another day gone by!
Joanne35
PAC BELL5/09/05
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Pacific Bell Internet Services email Kathy and let her know about their employee MIKE aka Pooty
VB5/09/05
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(((GAJane))), I admire and respect your truth as you share it here at the hub. Your words are sincere and gentle. I am smiling at the power that is in your gentleness. You Rock!
tina / Email5/09/05
Last Day Gambled 05/02/05
Location alberta
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Hello everyone. Going to have a cup of tea and curl up on the couch watch a little TV. Love Medium! Should be a good one tonight. Missed my GA meeting tonight-hubby had to work late-and sister is with friend in the city-dads working-tried everyone.But,not to worry I phoned my sponsor and made an arrangement to meet her this week, we’ll have a mini meeting! I had a good day...my son is in kindergarten and they had their mothers day thingy today. Sang some songs for us moms, then served us iced tea and a desert. Then get this!....they had to clean up the mess! Mine did nothing but complain about it. But it was all good. The important thing here is that I did NOT gamble today, and feeling darn good about it. So anyways, will check in tomorrow, bye for now.
Insharing5/09/05
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SERENITY
is the gracious gift of PEACE
that we receive for living
by the will of GOD..
Have a blessed and peaceful night..
everyone..will here too
off to work I gooooo...
with love
ysir
Joni b
5/09/05
Last Day Gambled 5-02-05
Location Wis.
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Good evening all,
After reading the posts...I know I'm in the right place.
The small amounts of negative energy we receive here are no match for all the POSITIVE ENERGY.
Welcome to all the newest, it is a great place to learn and share.
NMJett, your Vegas story sounds familiar. My sister turns 40 in Sept. and earlier this year, my parents, her and myself had talked about celebrating her B-day in Vegas. This past Fri. she and I got together and I told her I was seeking help (again) with my addiction, and that in order for it to work for me this time, I realized I cannot gamble part-time...... told her it was all or nothing, and I choose nothing. She looked a little confused and maybe disappointed and then said that I could still go with them
(realize, my family enjoys gambling....they have control)
After that comment, I just laughed and told her it would be like me sticking my head in the lions den and telling myself I wouldn't get bit. Then we both laughed together....
She is starting to understand.
A good gamble-free nite to all
ysir, Peg
lisavegas5/09/05
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GFY.....this cracks me up! you have such brilliant recovery! love your defense of PEDO...wait, you guys must be looking for NAMBLA....that is a different site. this one is for people who want to quit gambling, not compare others to Hitler or offer to buy children. this site is wonderful....and sorry to all the newcomers for having to deal with the sickos.....they are not usually on here....maybe they are on weekend furloughs....this is just an open and honest site where we are supposed to help each other not gambling any way we choose....ga is great ,but if you don't go, that is fine here,too.please keep posting and don't let them get to you.....i find it quite amusing that these people think they have "recovery" they have probably never stepped into a ga meeting ,and may not even have a gambling problem.....probably kids that stumbled upon this site while video gaming....and if you want to PREACH ...go get a sign and yell on the street corner with the rest of the nuts.....by the way...i love this site and the people on it who have helped me to not gamble!!! i am just doing great with only this hub, regardless of anyone else's opinion.
GAjane / Email5/09/05
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GFY
The only reason that I am responding (and this will be my last response to you unless you care to email me) is because I have read between the lines of your posts and I know that underneath all of that abrasiveness and rudeness....deep down, you do care.
FIRSTLY - This HUB is NOT a GA site. Although recognized by GA, no person who comes here has to attend GA. Yes there are some of us who do attend and that is great but there are also some who don't and that isgreat as well. This HUB of HOPE is NOT a place to recruit GA members...it is a place where people with a gambling problem can come for support and understanding. I have no personal agenda, or mandate, or underlying motive. I come here because it is one of the tools I use to remain gamble-free.
I have always looked at this site as a potential "stepping stone" to GA for those who do not attend because those of us that do, share how much the program has helped us. But sadly, every now and then, someone comes in and they are not stepping stones....they are like "quicksand." All this does is turn people off. I say shame on anyone who does that and shame on anyone who has to name call and demean others to make their point or fulfill a personalneed.
SECONDLY - Why is it, that if you follow the principals of GA that you say you need to "find comfort in YOUR OWN WORDS to not die old and bitter??????
THIRDLY - The only attacking on this board has been from you. I am being totally sincere when I say that I care about you and hope that you find serenity. I know that I have been where you are now....wanting to save the world. It isn't your job. GA does not recruit or solicit members. If it is meant to be, those who need to be there, will find their way there. If anyone has the power to or the reason to intervene on that path, itdefinitely isn't you. My suggestion; let people walk theirpaths, if they reach out...be there for them.It's not your path to map out.
Fourthly - You state that "you have your truth and I have mine." You get a point for that one. It is true...but let's elaborate on that one with this...You don't know my truth and I don't know yours. I will be honest with you. I don't want to know your truth because my truth doesn't include anger at my fellow cg's.
LASTLY - You state that "we are not as different as I would suggest." We are very differentmy friend. We may want the same outcome but we are very different.
Again my friend, if you want to discuss this further please email me as I am very open-minded...... are you???
GAjane
liom / Email5/09/05
Last Day Gambled 2/14/04
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Hilo Hubbers, Warm welcome to all the newbies. Please, do not let some of the post you may read here discourage you. A big warm WTG! to all milestoners .. Please,accept your accomplishment and rejoice in it even when there are some who are condemning. Iwas probablyan angry, bitter, old lady when I first came to the Hub. I probably wallowed in a lot of self pity and self condemnation. If it had not been for the warmth, support, encouragement from so many here I wouldn't be celebrating 15 months of being gamble free. It was also the pushing of some here that got me to GA. I have only missed three meetings since I started. One I had to work and the other two I was sick. There have been times I didn't want to go and some one here says something and I remember where I was and where I hope I am heading. I know that at my GA we are always reminded to keep are sharing about ourself. When I started at the GA meeting there were only 2 others. Now we have about 11 if everyone shows up. We do a step meeting once a month. We read the combo book continuously. Yet there are those that attend that slip and go back out. We have two who attend each week and gamble every week. No one there puts them down. We offer suggestions for breaking the cycle. We call them during the week. We aren't giving up on them ... not until they give up on themselves ...and even then we will welcome them back when they return. GFY, I can't tell from your post if you are a compulsive gambler or if you attend GA. I do question why you feel it necessary to put anyone or this board down. We are a bunch of sick, compulsive gamblers trying to the best of our ability to recover and restore our life to some form of normal. No one here needsto be made to feel inadequate or made out to be a failure or a fraud. You would do more good sharing your own battle with gambling and your road to recovery.I was going to say something crass about the cheese, buthave thought better of it.