Me:
oh baguette
still havent spoken to u yet!!!
cant believe your leaving still!
you didnt even come down here
u bad bafoon!
i thought u settled down in france and things were going well for u ?
Thursday 17th Jan 2013
11:54pm
Marine Bosc wrote:
In france i just did my course but there's nothing for me here plus i want to be a flight attendant so I have the opportunity to move everywhere!!!!
I am just leaving for a year now, then I will probably apply for a company because I really need to have a real job!!!!
My baffoon I know, would love to come back to london at least for holidays to see all of you
Today 4:36pm
Me:
im sure you'll visit London in the future, I know you liked it a lot..
But fuck London for now! lol , it will still be here!
since the mayans got it all wrong..
I want to see my baguette like NOW!! Before she’s gone..
Its been how long since I bited your fat cheeks??
Exactly !
4:37pm
Me:
but seriously your right and im glad for you. Your doing what most woman don’t do, being independent.
I see its what you want. And U never gave up No regrets in life !
4:41pm
Me:
but honestly , I’ve been missing you smurf!! these past few weeks..i don’t know what Hit me, but it hit me hard..
its like a lot of things just came back and im sick of holding it all in!!
But i cant really speak myself on internet.. Obviously.
Some feelings came back..that I couldn’t help!!!
Cont..
4:41pm
Me:
Guess It made me laugh a lil
Remember so many silly things about u !! but I never told you what I liked and saw in you !
i never really ignored,
when i say i dont care, i usually do.
I need to make sense of it and see it
or move on, cant do it without your help though...
4:43pm
Me:
I still remember,, things you told me,
things that felt real,, things that matter I never forget..
but one regret I have was not being myself and expressing what I feel, ..you meant something to me but I LIED to myself and you..
not happy with that.
cant move on with the knowledge of that.,
Cont…
4:44pm
Me:
I cant move up without being clear to myself and those I honestly care about.
It’s the least I owe myself and you..
i hope the real talk hasnt shocked u too much!!
but we're both grown adults as well.
I hope you can try to understand me my baguette..
I've got nothing to lose, but everything to gain in life now.
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I was thinking of just sending her a courtesy message tomorrow, just to ask how she is and that I meant everyting I said.
I can't live by bottling up feelings inside me. And that hopefully we can both meet before she leaves sometime. As its really important to me.