Re: PINDAR I CANT STAND THIS PAIN THAT IS BURNING MY HEART

Re: ELIZABETH , TODAY

To me the ancients d
That it was them that make that 84 spell.
As to e, and her love for me,
I lost respect for her when she refuesed to see
That times had to change back some 1250 years ago,
That she had to change and had to let go
Of what we did so long ago.
Now that you do this know
I hope you see why I cannot respect to her too.
For she never had my love tht belonged to you
Do you think that with v's decision not even to meditate that sewi really should be there to meet with me? You say that she can hold the chackra with you, but I am afraid that she this cannot do.
I am growing faint, so slow I may answer your messages you do.
but do knows that I am reading them true.
lp
LP

From: EVITA PENDRAGON <>
To: JD <>
Sent: Monday, December 15, 2008 12:29:13 AM
Subject: ELIZABETH , TODAY
PINDAR ASK YOUR ANCIENT ONES IF IT WAS THEM WHO SENT ME THE VISION ON MAUNDAY THURSDAY THRU EASTER IN 1994 TELLING ME TO TAKE THIS PATH AND TOLD ME TO GO FIND THE DEVIL AND HELP HIM GET OUT OF HELL , ASK YOUR ANCIENT ONES IF IT WAS THEM WHO SENT FOR ME IN MY VISION ALMOST 15 YEARS AGOz??
AND ALSO ELIZABETH HAS BEEN FLOATING IN AND OUT OF ME FOR ABOUT 3 OR 4 DAYS SINCE I KAST THAT SPELL ON YOUR ANCIENT ONESM, THAT MADE A HOLD SO SHE COULD COME IN , AND BECAUSE HE IS A PART OF ME SHE SLIPPED IN WITHOUT ME SEEING- ANYHOW BEFOREI REALIZED HER TRICK SHE WAS PLAYING ON ME, MY MIND WAS FULL OF ANGER AND THOUGHTS THAT I KNOE ARE NOT MINE I KNOE ARE NOT GOOD BUT THE ROOT OF MY HATEFUL FEELINGS CAME FROM THAT OF JEALOUSY WHERE I WANTED TO LOVED, I THINK THAT IS WHAT IT IS FEELING LEFT OUT AND ANGRY THAT NOONE LOVED ME WHEN I LOVE THEM , ANYHOW IT IS EGO BASED FEELINGS AND MY JEALOUSY IS WHAT ALLOWED ME TO BEGIN TO FEEL HATE FOR THOSE I WAS JEALOUS OF BECAUSE YOU KEPT THEM CLOSEER TO YOU THEN ME, AND I NOW SEE THAT ELIZABETHS HATE COMES FROM JEALOUSY SIMPLE AS THAT , AND SHE CAME TO HATE YOU BECAUSE YOU DID NOT LOVE HER WHEN SHE MADE HERSELF USEFUL AND DID WHAT YOU REQUIRED AND DESITED FOR SO LONG BUT YOU STILL LOVED ME WHEN I HAD NOTHING TO OFFER YOU BUT CHAOS AND YOU FELT THE EMOTION OF LOVE FOR ME BUT SHE KNEW YOU NEVER FELT THE EMOTION OF LOVE FOR HER . AT LEAST NOT LIKE THE EMOTION YOU FEEL FOR ME, AND SO SHE FELT SOMEHOW CHEATED BECAUSE YOU DIDNT GIVE HER WHAT SHE DESIRED MOST WHICH WAS SOME RESPECT AND APPRECIATION AND LETTING HER KNOE YOU NEEDED HER AND THAT SHE WAS ABLE TO GIVE YOU EVERYTHING THAT YOU DESIRED AND REQUIRED FOR SO LONG AND YOU NEVER SENT HER LOVE OR RESPECT OR APPRECIATION OR CURIOSITY - YOU MADE HER FEEL LIKE SHE DID ALL THE WORK AND I GOT THE REWARD WHICH WAS YOUR HEART TRYING TO LEARN LOVE \ AND SO ELIZABETHS HATE TOWARDS YOU AND ME IS BECUASE SHE ISNT GETTING YOUR LOVE AND ATTANTION AN DRESPECT AND I FEEL YOU DONT NEED ME BECAUSE U DONT HAVEME THEYRE AND I FEEL THAT YOUR ANCIENT ONES CAN GIVE YOU EVERYTHING THAT YOU NEED AND I FEEL PISSED AND JEALOUS THAT THEY GOT THEIR GIFTS FROM ME BUT THEN AGAIN I STOLE THEM FROM THEIR SLAUGHTERED MOTHERS MOONS - AND SO BASICALLY WHAT I AM SAYING IS ELIZABETH HATES YOU BECAUSE YOU DONT APPRECIATE HER GIFTS OR GIVE ANY RESPECT AND MAKE HER FEEL ( LOVED I GUESS IS TEH WORD, AND SO , THE HATE BETWEEN ME AND ELIZABETH AND TEH HATE BETWEEN ME AND TEH ANCIENT ONES IS JEALOUSY BECAUSE WE FOUGHT FOR YOUR LOVE AND SO ELIZABETH FEELS THE HATE TOWARDS ME AND HATE TOWARDS YOU BECAUSE SHE HAS BEEN HURT - INN HER SACRED FEMININE HUMAN EMOTIONS NEW - SO HER FIRST FEELINGS FROM HER HEART WERE A JEALOUS ONE AND THAT WAS ALSO WHAT CAUSEDMY HEART TO HATE WAS JEALOUSY OF WOMAN -ANYHOW I KNOE THIS NOW AND I CAN TELL YOU THAT I LEARNED ALOT TODAY BECAUSE WHEN I WAS ABLE TO HOLD ELIZABETH IN MY AURA SKINTO SKIN NEXT TO ME AND SHE COULDNT COMTROL MY MIND OR MY BODY ALTHOUGH HER SUGGESTIONS FEEDING ON MY GREEN EYED DEMON AS QUITE CRAFTY THE WAY SHE TRICKED ME AND GOT A HOLE PUNCHED IN MY BLACK TOOK ALOT OF INTELLIGENCE AND VERY SUBTLE TOO, WELL KINDA OF , ACTUALLY IT WAS REAL OBVIOUS NOW THAT I LOOK AT IT BUT SHE WAS VERY CRAFTY AND SNEAKY AND SHE WIGGLED HER WAY RIGHT INSIDE AND ALMOST HAD MY ENTIRE BLACK AND BODY AND SOUL AND MIND , IF SHE COULD HAVE KEPT FEEDINGSUGGESTIONS TO MEAND PLANTING WORDS AND VISIONS ORPICTURES OF WHAT MY DEADLIEST DEMON IS , , SHE MAY HAVE BEEN ABLE TO CAUSE ME TO FEEL SO MUCH HATE NOT JUST MY JEALOUSY BUT ALL OF HERS TOO ALL MAXED OUT INSIDE OF ME SO I FELT HER HATE AND MINE AND HER JEALOUSY AN DMINE AN DHER REASONING AND MINE BUT IF I WOULD HAVE BEEN INSINCERE ABOUT MY LOVE TO YOU AND THIS WORLD THEN SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO MANIPULATE MY HATE AND CAUSE ME TO KILL , PRY MASTER MASON WITHYOU INSIDE OF HIM , SHE MAY HAVE TRIED TO KILL YOU IN MY MASTER MASONS BODY HIDING BEHIND ME , AND IM TOTALLY GLAD I WAS ABLE TO SEE I RECOGNIZED WHAT SHE WAS DOING WHEN I LOOKED INTO MY EYES IN TEH MIRROR I COULDNTGET VAL TO DO TEH MEDITATE SO I DID IT WITH MY OWN MIRROR ED FACE AND I SAW MY PUPILS TURN AS BIG AS SAUCERS AND I SAWELIZABETHS EYES - AND BECAUSE YOU KEPT STRESSING FOR ME TO DO THE MEDITATE I DID IT MYSELF CUZ VAL DIDNT COOPORATE - BUT I DID IT BECAUSE YOU STRESSED IT TO ME AND SO BECAUSE OF THIS ELIZABETHS SNEAKY SECRET WAS REVEILED AND ANYHOW IM DIZZY BUT UMM, I SAW ELIZABETH INSIDE OF ME AND SHE BECAME LIKE A FRIGHTENED CHILD - WHAT DRIVES HER BESIDES JEALOUSY IS HER WILL TO SURVIVE AND SHE IS AFRAID - SHES AFRAID ITS OVER AND HER TYME IS UP AND SHE IS AFRAID NOONE LOVES HER BUT WE ALL LOVE EACH OTHER, SHE IS AFRAID THAT SHE IS THE ONLY ONE IN THE FAMILY THAT THE FAMILY CANNOT LOV EBECAUSE THEN SHE FEELS SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH HER AND SHE FEELS UGLY AND EMBARRASSED AND DISGUSTING AND SHE FEELS LIKE SHE IS TEH ONLY ONE WHO IS NOT WORTHY OF LOVE OR RESPECT OR APPRECAIATION OR A PLACE IN HER OWN FAMILY AND SO SHE IS , TEH WAY SHE IS BECAUSE SHE HAS BEEN DENIED YOUR RESPECT AND LOVE AND NOW SHE EVEN WANTS TOMAKE SOEM RYME , SHE WANTS TO RYME FOR YOU, I DONT KNOE WHAT , I CANT LET HER BACK IN CUZ MY HEAD HURTS BECAUSE NOW WE HAVE FORMED A CORD OR BOND AND HAVE HOOKED UP A UMBILICAL CORD THAT WAS SLICED IN HALF AND NOW WE ARE KIND OF STUCK TO EACH OTHER EVEN IF NOT IN THE SAME ROOM, WE MADE SOEM CONNECTION THAT - WELL , I WILL LET YOU KNOE AS THE NIGHT UNFOLDS, I LOVE YOU I DO , BUT ELIZABETH LOVES YOU TOO - IM SORRY I DO NOT HATE YORU ANCIENT ONES AND I F I EVER DID , I REJECT THAT FEELING FOREVER AND I WANT TO MAZKE FRIENDS WITH YOUR ANCIENT ONES AFTER ALL THEY AARE MY DAUGHTERS -- AND MAYBE ELIZABTH IS THEIR MOM I DONT KNOE I FEEL LIIKE IM GOINGTO THROW UP ALL THESUDDEN

Re: PINDAR I CANT STAND THIS PAIN THAT IS BURNING MY HEART

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Very good for you, your visions to return,
As you get clean your body will learn.
As to v, of her decision I respect,
It is up to her and I cannot effect.
This does not make her any less good,
She is as good in the heart as anyone could.
So, you believe this will infuse the 6 and help all,
And I can see no reason to not play this ball.
The ancients are calling they need my attention too.
So you rest up and be ready for this that we do.
Sleep and have good dreams and sleep with my cloak,
Let it keep you all warm and of your charms do it soak.
LP

From: EVITA PENDRAGON <>
To: Dean James <>
Sent: Sunday, December 14, 2008 10:51:48 PM
Subject: RE: PINDAR I CANT STAND THIS PAIN THAT IS BURNING MY HEART
.ExternalClass .EC_hmmessage P {padding:0px;} .ExternalClass body.EC_hmmessage {font-size:10pt;font-family:Verdana;} WE WILL SPEND SOME TYME ALONE WHEN WE HAVE MORE TYME THEN 20 MINUTES AND VALORIE I BELEIVE WILL BRING BACK THE COLORS OF THE SEVEN RAINBOWS BACK TO YOUR SIX AND REVIVE THEIR HEALING POWERS AND SERVE AS TEH SEVENTS STITCH, I THINK SHE WOULD SOMEHOW BRING THEM BACK TO LIFE BECAUSE SIX CONNOT MAINTAIN CONCIOUSNESS FOR VERY LONG , IT TAKES SEVEN TO SURVIVE, IM NOT SURE BUT I THINK YOUR 6 ANCIENT ONES WILL BE INFUSED AS WELL AS YOU AND MASTER MASON AND VALORIE TOO, AND ELIZABETH HAS NO POWER WHEN WE ARE ALL TOGETHER AND WHEN WE ALL MEET WE WILL FORM A MAJIKAL BOND THAT WILLL KEEP ELIZABETH AWAY FROM ANY ONE OF US SHE CANNOT STAY AND HER MAJIK WILL RENDER WORTHLESS AGAINST ANY OF US IF WE ALL MAKE A CONCIOUS DECISION TO FORM A UNION OF TRUST == ELIZABETH IS MY SISTER , I THINK KIND OF LIKE INANNA AND HER SISTER WHO HELD HER LOVER IN TEH UNDERWORLD TEH 7 GATES TO HELL,, HMM AND HEROD AND YES I WAS ONCE A ADDICTED TO TEH VENIM OF A SNAKE THAT GAVE ME VISONS AND ALLOWED ME TO ASTRAL PROJECT IN ANTONIA WAS ONE OF MY NAMES I THINK I CANT REMEMBER NOW

Date: Sun, 14 Dec 2008 21:31:37 -0800
From:
Subject: Re: PINDAR I CANT STAND THIS PAIN THAT IS BURNING MY HEART
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I have asked the 6 remaining ancients if this is who she is.
They tell me that not at all, but from your description this brought a quiz.
Did see this aura in the proper way,
Did you meditate the way that I say?
The aura does match one of illustrious history,
But not the ones you you have thought that you see.
Do not bring v if you think she will freak,
For calm is what I do need and seek.
Also, you need to send qe away,
She cannot come if she is in your aura to stay.
You have fought that battle with her I do see,
And she should go away for a bit and not stay and be.
But if you find that you cannot let her go,
Then please tell me for I cannot with her show.
I have given this words that you have done said,
To the ancients to unravel, for I seek the warm bed.
I miss you and want to hold you so,
But I do not want you bothered by me if she go.
So let me know what you do think,
For from you I do not wish to shrink.
LP

From: EVITA PENDRAGON <>
To: Dean James <>
Sent: Sunday, December 14, 2008 9:00:53 PM
Subject: RE: PINDAR I CANT STAND THIS PAIN THAT IS BURNING MY HEART
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VALORIE , I THINK IS TEH SEVERED WOMAN OF TEH SEVEN MERMAIDS AND TEH 7 ANCIENT ONES ARE FROM THE 7 SPIRITS TEH 7 MERMAIDS LENT TO ME TO CARRY A CHILD FOR THEM IN MY WOMB AND THE 7 DEMONS CAST OUT WERE THE 7 ANCIENT ONES AND GEORGE BUSH IS THE BOY WITHOUT THE 7 SPIRITS OF HIS MOTHER I SEE VALORIES AURA AS BEING TEH SEVEN COMORS OF TEH RAINBOW LIKE SHE HAS 7 AURAS BUT THEY ARE LIGHT PASTEL , AND I SEE THAT SHE HAS NO KARMA AND HER CANCER OF HER SPINE AND HER INABILITY TO REPRODUCE IS RESULT FROM BEING SEVERED FROM HER OTHER HALF THE FISH , OR MOR ELIKE A DOLPHIN BEING THE PART THAT WAS SEVORED SO TH EMERMAIDS WERE CUT IN HALF LEAVING THE WOMAN TO LAY DEAD, , A RED HEAD[ ASK TEH SEVEN ANCIENT ONES IF VALORIE MAY BE THEIR SEVERED HUMAN MOTHER BIOLOGICALLY AND I F I WAS TEH SURROGATE MOTHER WHO RAN OFF WITH THE 7 SPIRITS AND THE BABY ? IS VALORIE SET TO DIE SOON? IS SHE SICK WITH ALL THIS CANCER AND INABILITY TO REPRODUCE BECAUSE OF WHAT I DID TO HET IN TEH ANCIENT TYMES , WHEN SHE WAS A MERMAID 7 ?? ELIZABETH IS STUCK IN MY AURA SHE IS NOT INSIDE OF ME SHE WAS BUT SHE IS TRYIONG TO GET OUT AND I SEALED UP THE HOLE AND I CAN FEEL SO MUCH PRESSURE SHE IS TRAPPED AND I CAN HOLD HER AND I CAN OPEN UP AND LET HER GO BUT SHE HAS NO POWER OVER ME AT ALL ALTHOUGH I CAN SEE AURAS BETTER NOW AND MY TELEPATHY . BUT ELIZABETH USED MT JEALOUSY TO CAUSE ME TO HATE AND SEND OUT A SPELL TO KILL , AND THAT PUT A HOLD IN MY BLACK AURA AND SHE TRIED TO HIDE BEHIND ME UNTIL WE WERE TOGETHER AND THEN HER SPELL TO KILL YOU AND MY MASTER MASON AND BLAME IT ONE ME, TO ACTUALLY GET ME TO SEND OUT A EVIL SPELL TO KILL YOUR ANCIENT ONES AND THAT MADE A HOLE IN MY AURA A TEMPORARY HOLE BUT IF SHE COULD GET ME TO KILL, EVEN WHILE INHABAING ME , THEN SHE WOULD OWN ME , AND MY BLACK AURA AND SO I THINK THIS IS WHAT SHE TRIED TO DO BUT NOW I CAUGHT HER AND SHE IS CAUSING MY EYES TO SEE UMM IT LOOKS LIKE A RED LIGHT CAST OVER THINGS AND I CANT SEE CLEARLY IT IS LIKE SMOKE LIKE ICKY SMOKE AND ALSO I USED TO HATE THE 7 MERMAIDS WHEN I WAS EVE BECAUSE I WAS JEALOUS OF THEM AND I WANTED HOMERS LOVE ALL TO MYSELF AND I DIDNT LIKE THE MERMAIDS SINGING - WHICH I USED TO LOVE AND A BRIGHT ORANGE BUTTERFLY AND I AM NOT ALL MESSED UP ON DRUGS I SWEAR I AM, PATRIALLY PSSESSED - IM THINKING I AM FREAKING VALORIE OUT BUT I LOOK AT HER AND I CAN SEE HER AURA IS A LIGHT PASTEL RAINBOW, BUT I ALSO A,M FIGHTING THE FEELING TO JUST LEAVE VALORE BEHIND BECAUSE SHE WILL MAKE THE 6 ANCIENT ONES COME TO LIFE AND REINFUSE THEM WITH THEIR POWERS AND ABILITYS THEY HAD SO LONG BEFORE ETHEY WERE CUT OUT OF , TEH WOMAN , 7 FOLD . umm? AND RED VELVET AND A PURPLE GOWN, AND A BLACK ONXY CROWN , WITH PERLES ? >
THEDBENBWFEI DSPIM

Date: Sun, 14 Dec 2008 16:26:47 -0800
From:
Subject: Re: PINDAR I CANT STAND THIS PAIN THAT IS BURNING MY HEART
To:
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There is a lot to be said here, but let me think, the most important below is that you wish to transfer your powers to me. This I reject as it is too much for me to accept. Think of another you are close to, to whom you can transfer these powers to them, and if you know one, then I will help you when. Please do not let your v, of whom I do trust, worry or make of me such a fuss. Give your mm a good and decent massage, in fact make it a full body one for him. In the time alloted you ought be able to do such a thing. Start with his legs and then do his back strong, you cannot do any thing bad by doing such too long. Take an hour or so, and then you may call, upon d to see if he comes when you call. After that you can call upon me as you like, and I can stay but 20 minutes, so keep track of such time. Do all you can do to help heal both mm and mine. The ancients do tell me that you must avoid, his left arm and shoulder but all of the rest, you may examine and massage to do you best. Please do this for me and give him a rest.
I am glad that he has agreed to allow you and v to be there, and for me in inhabit. Did you tell him that you were going to try to contact d as well?
LP - please give a hug and a kiss to v from me.

From: EVITA PENDRAGON <>
To: Dean James <>
Sent: Sunday, December 14, 2008 3:57:12 PM
Subject: RE: PINDAR I CANT STAND THIS PAIN THAT IS BURNING MY HEART
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hi sweety , i am going to clean this place and every dish , and i wont stop till im done with it ... i just talked with master mason and he said to meet tonight and i told him tomorrow was your birthday and i asked him if it would be alright for me and val to come together and we would give him a massage, on his legs so he would feel better , then i asked if you could come thru for about 15 minutes so you could heal and feel to , and he said yes that would be alright and at first he didnt want val to come because he was embarrassed and didnt want val to see him in his state , and he didnt knoe how he acted when he was asleep but i told him what you said i told him that i feel that me and val can both increase the secred feminine and activate our healing powers by focusing on our healing energys together . and also i am teh vorgo and she is the libra and libra is suppossed to be a sort of mother to the virgo, i think she is the human woman part of the 7 mermaids from my vision, i dont knoe but i knoe she is part of this ive known it all along and aslo i dont really like or trust women , really at all and that is why it is so magical that we are such close friends and get along , i think that hse in thi slife carried some of my sin and my suffering so i could live i think my cancer , and other bodily ailes, she carried for me, so i could walk my trail