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Far Out
Taylor Kramer -- rock musician, rocket scientist, entrepreneur -- has vanished into thin air. He could be a suicide. A homicide. A runaway. An Alien Abductee.
Finally, he is what he always wanted to be. A legend.
by Richard Leiby, Washington Post Staff Writer 10/06/96, p. F01
The Washington Post -- The day he disappeared, Philip Taylor Kramer -- who was worth more than a million dollars -- had 40 cents in his pocket. In his head, he carried secrets -- some said to be of incalculable value.
An aerospace engineer, he knew how to configure the flight path of a nuclear missile. A computer executive, he developed revolutionary technology to compress and transmit data. A student of theoretical physics, he pursued particles and equations that he believed would someday permit objects to move faster than the speed-of-light (i.e., "warp speed") making possible travel to the stars.
These facts alone set the disappearance of Philip Taylor Kramer apart from your average milk-carton missing persons case. Add one other: The rocket scientist was a 'rocker'. Kramer could expertly lay down the throbbing bass line for "In-a-Gadda-da-Vida" -- the baroque hippie anthem he used to perform as a member of the band Iron Butterfly.
Now we're talking! The case has been reported on "Unsolved Mysteries" and "America's Most Wanted." There have been "sightings". There is conjecture about sinister global conspiracies. Was Kramer abducted by America's enemies? A U.S. congressman thinks so. Is Kramer trapped by his own technological wizardry, imprisoned somewhere in cyberspace? It's one theory.
Many people believe that when Kramer vanished on Feb. 12, 1995 -- last known location: a green Aerostar mini-van on Highway 101 about 30 miles north of Los Angeles -- he entered another realm. And in a way, whatever the truth of his disappearance, they are right. Philip Taylor Kramer, age 42 when last seen, has become part of popular mythology, dwelling in the same corner of our pre-millennial landscape as the living Elvis, the UFO crash at Roswell, N.M., and the evil designs of the One World Government.
"Someone may have grabbed him," says Rep. James Traficant (D-Ohio), who knows Kramer's family and has urged the FBI to fully investigate the national security implications of the disappearance. Foreign or domestic terrorists could have brainwashed Kramer for "nefarious purposes", Traficant says -- namely, to launch a nuclear strike. (The FBI briefly looked into it and says there is no reason to suspect such a plot.)
"Somebody put a gun to his head," suggests Ron Bushy, Iron Butterfly's drummer and Kramer's closest friend, "because he'd just made a breakthrough in this new technology."
The fact is that Kramer's disappearance is mysterious. His company was mired in bankruptcy, and in those final days he was clearly emotionally distraught. From a cellular phone, he called '911' to say he was going to kill himself. But was the call made under duress?
No body was ever found. The van was never found. An extensive aerial search yielded no sign of a submerged vehicle. Resilient and eternally upbeat, Kramer had weathered setbacks in the past without cracking. He had no history of psychiatric problems. He didn't use drugs or drink. He adored his children.
A 6-foot-5, 220-pound man is likely to stand out, dead or alive. Kramer's family and friends circulated thousands of fliers and pursued hundreds of purported sightings and leads nationwide. All to no avail.
His credit cards were never used again. Neither was his cell phone.
"We've got no motive, no evidence, nothing," says private investigator Chuck Carter, a former cop and DEA agent hired by Kramer's business partners.
"Pick a scenario, any scenario," says Detective Tom Bennett, who's handling the case for the Ventura County Sheriff's Department. Officially, Kramer has been entered into a national missing-persons database as "endangered".
Traficant -- one of the more eccentric congressmen, who prides himself on his lone-wolf independence -- vows further investigation by his staff: "There's some funny things here," he says.
Some sad things, too. "I long to have his dead body found so that I can end this," says Jennifer Kramer, who married Taylor (everyone called him 'Taylor') in 1987. "I don't care why he's gone. Look at what I'm left with."
"I still grieve terribly. I know every inch of his body, every vein in his foot that's popping out," she says. "I intended to be with him the rest of my life."
Recently their 6-year-old Hayley has been seeing Daddy in her dreams. She's been asking whether Mommy can put up a little stone in a cemetery. A place for her to go and pray and bring flowers for Daddy.
Words and Music
Until he or his body turns up, we can't know for sure what happened to Philip Taylor Kramer. But we can search for clues, like everyone else.
On the Internet, some people are looking for evidence in the words to "In-a-Gadda-da-Vida", which brought multi-million album sales and world fame for San Diego-based Iron Butterfly in 1968. The song is as good as any a place to start.
"Dunh, dunh, da-da-da dunh-DUNH-dunh-dunh …" goes the simple bass line -- a riff that might have reasonably supported a tune lasting 2 minutes but which the musicians attenuated to cover an entire album side -- 17 minutes 5 seconds. Its lyrics were pedestrian: "Baby, don't you know that I love you/ Don't you know that I'll always be true." Its interminable wdrum solo and Gothic keyboard noodling render it practically unlistenable today. Yet it became the first certified platinum album in history. It stayed on the album charts for 140 weeks. "In-a-Gadda-da-Vida" held a power and attraction far beyond its musical merit as stoners stuck their heads next to pulsing speakers and attempted to divine the song's greater message.
Even the title was a mystery in a way. It was the drummer's exact transcription of singer Doug Ingle's drunkenly slurred words when he finished writing the song after a gallon of cheap wine at 3:00 in the morning. He was trying to say "In the Garden of Eden".
This turned out to be accidental marketing genius. Now every fan would be able to put forth his own theory about the meaning of the words.
Taylor Kramer performed "Vida" hundreds of times on tour as both bassist and singer. But he never liked to talk about his time in the group -- he seemed embarrassed by it.
Why? Perhaps because Kramer had nothing to do with Iron Butterfly's signature song. In fact, he wasn't even in the band during its late-'60s heyday. Kramer joined a regrouped version in 1974 -- 3 years after the original band broke up.
The 2 albums that Kramer recorded with the group went nowhere on the charts. Asking Kramer about his stint in Butterfly was like asking Pete Best what it was like being a Beatle.
But all his life, Kramer wanted to be known for doing something significant. He didn't want to make a fortune, but he wanted people to know his name. Maybe that's our first good clue.
On the Road
That Sunday morning driving on Highway 101, Kramer made 17 cell phone calls to family members, friends, and business associates. The last call came into the California Highway Patrol's 911 switchboard at a minute before Noon:
"911, can I help you?"
"Yes. This is Philip Taylor Kramer."
"Uh-huh. This is 911. Can I help you, Sir?"
"Yes, you can. I'm going to kill myself ... "
A few seconds later, the polite, measured voice was gone.
"Hello? Hello?" the operator said frantically. Silence.
Happier Times
Christmas Day, 1994. It's a month-and-a-half before the disappearance, and things couldn't have seemed more normal at the Kramer household. Carols on the stereo. Cookies and sweets left for Santa. Visits from relatives bearing gifts. Barbies for Hayley, a hockey stick for then 13 Derek. And Dad with the video camera, recording it all.
After Hayley tries on her new holiday dress and "fairy princess" shoes, Dad puts her on a pedestal (literally) so she can display them for the camera. His own childlike excitement builds as the little girl opens her gifts: "Oh, my gosh! Your own roller skates. The big-girl kind!"
At one point Kramer sets the camera on the dining room table and lets it roll. The video shows an athletic, amiable giant in white shorts and a loose blue shirt. The Kramers seem to want for nothing here in their $250,000 ranch-home-with-a-pool, set amid raw canyons in a newish Thousand Oaks subdivision.
Dad can't keep his lens off Hayley, then 4. She gets annoyed at one point: "Set the camera down!"
"Hayley, just one thing," he persists … then whispers, eerily: "I love you."
Is this a clue? It is almost as if he were planning his escape and feeling regret.
But maybe it is just a father telling his child he loves her.
Father and Son
As the Space Age unfolded, Ray Kramer filled his children with the wonder of Science, always talking about NASA projects, computers, coming breakthroughs. Taylor and his older brother and sister grew up in Youngstown, Ohio where Dad was chairman of the electrical engineering department at Youngstown State University. Ray Kramer taught his kids how things worked, patiently guiding their school science projects.
Taylor built one that everyone remembers. In 9th grade, he won top prize with a laser rigged to shoot down a balloon. Of course, Dad helped out by supplying the synthetic ruby lens.
Taylor also was gifted on the guitar. At 12, he formed a garage rock band. 'The Concepts', he called them.
In the early 1960s in his physics research, Ray Kramer grew convinced that the universal speed limit imposed by Einstein -- the speed-of-light, 186,000 miles per second -- could somehow be surpassed. This involved complex extrapolations about energy, mass, gravity, and hyperparticles. Mainstream physicists scoff at such folly.
A teenage Taylor would peer at his father's scribblings, curious.
"Dad, how come you're always working on one equation?" he'd ask.
"There is only one equation," Ray would say. "It's all in one equation."
A Right-Brainer
At the time of his disappearance, Philip Taylor Kramer owned about 1.7 million shares of stock in a company called Total Multimedia Inc. which he founded in 1990. They were worth about $1 per share. But anybody who ever worked with Kramer says he didn't care about money and never kept track of it, just as he ignored other workaday details. Once, he boarded a plane thinking he was headed for a meeting in Atlanta and ended up in Hawaii.
Kramer was an idea man -- a "right-brainer". A proponent of grand visions, relentlessly evangelizing for new technologies that he believed would transform entertainment, education and, indeed, the World.
"Given all time, all things are possible' -- that was his favorite statement," says Dan Shields, a former business partner. "He could see over the horizon."
But over time, Kramer's tendency for leveraging the future on dreams led to collapsed schemes. His career trajectory is a sine wave, easy to chart. First a burst of great enthusiasm … followed by an arc of significant promise … then a sputter into failure. Then enthusiasm, again.
It had been that way ever since Kramer moved to California in the early 1970s with his sister Kathy -- a singer and pianist -- both of them pursuing musical stardom.
After Taylor hooked up with drummer Ron Bushy, his rock future seemed secure. Looking remarkably like the heavy-metal parody band Spinal Tap, the new Iron Butterfly featured 2 original members and a different sound, but enjoyed some success touring on the strength of its legend.
Kramer avoided the era's excesses, keeping fit on the road with a punishing 1,000 sit-ups a day. He devoted himself to songwriting as well as mathematics, scribbling formulas, poetry, and philosophy on napkins and hotel stationery.
One verse from that period reads: "Progress is on the move/ Computer life is such a groove." He was not a great lyricist.
After meager record sales stalled the band, Taylor enrolled at Western States College of Engineering. It was 1980. He cut his hair short, donned a suit, and went for the cash which was plentiful in the defense industry during the Reagan-era buildup. While still in school he landed a job at Northrop Corp. in Hawthorne.
Glen Mavis worked with Kramer at Northrop. And both had to swear a national security oath. Mavis would notice whenever Kramer's office cubicle was taped shut. Engineers did this to signal that their work was classified and not to be viewed by anyone else. Mavis isn't sure exactly what Kramer was doing, but he knows it involved helping to get the MX missile to fly accurately.
Because Kramer wasn't much of a hacker, he enlisted Mavis to write the computer code to monitor the telemetry. "He came up with system that would predict a failure before it would happen," Mavis recalls. "He's very creative."
Mavis and others say that Kramer frequently operated on the financial margins, piling up debts in various business ventures but always managing to bounce back. "Whatever the problem was," says Mark Spiwak, another former business partner, "he could deal with it."
"Whatever got Taylor was something that he couldn't deal with. Whether it was an outside force that came down on him, or ... "
Spiwak doesn't finish the thought. But the message comes through: Maybe it was an inside force that got Taylor Kramer.
The Visionary
Kramer always seemed to end up on the fringes of fame. One of his close friends -- also a director of Total Multimedia -- was Randy Jackson, the youngest sibling in the musical Jackson family. Several Jacksons (but not Michael) showed up at a press event in 1990 when Kramer unveiled digital technology that he called "the state of the art for the next century". He was announcing the "worldwide" release of an electronic magazine Vizions including "not only pictures but also moving pictures".
Sure, it was possible. But how practical? No market existed then for such a product. There is barely a demand today for CD-ROM magazines. As usual, Kramer was too far ahead of the curve, caught on the "bleeding edge" of technology -- a man selling a solution for a problem nobody yet had.
Eventually Kramer's vision was embraced on a much smaller scale by some local educators. Kramer's greatest desire was to help children learn -- his teenage stepson Derek had a learning disability. By 1993, Total Multimedia's video compression technology was being tested in the local school district as part of its multimedia curriculum.
And one of his marketing efforts impressed the then-president of the Nickelodeon cable channel, Geraldine Laybourne, who wrote in a December 1993 letter to Kramer:
"Early in my day with you, I thought: `This Taylor Kramer is one incredibly passionate and committed fellow. He surely will make a difference in the World.' "
Nothing more came of it.
Nothing more came of anything.
Transcript
Let's play that suicide tape again:
" ... This is Philip Taylor Kramer."
"Uh-huh. This is 911. Can I help you, Sir?"
"Yes, you can. I'm going to kill myself."
Silence.
That is where the tape ended when it was played on two national TV shows. But it is not the end of the tape. Kramer's family authorized release of the 911 tape to the news media on condition that the next thing he said not be aired.
Here it is:
"And I want everyone to know: O.J. Simpson is innocent. They did it."
This illuminates something. Something of which Rep. Traficant -- for all his conspiratorial certitude -- was unaware. In the final days before his disappearance, Taylor Kramer was under nearly unendurable stress, pressing in on him from all directions, from within and without, from the past and present and future.
By most indications, he was quietly but emphatically going mad.
"We can't progress by using logic alone. We have to attain a fuller consciousness, an inner connection with God ... guided by a higher part of ourselves." -- from The Celestine Prophecy by James Redfield.
In the Summer of 1994, The Celestine Prophecy -- a compendium of New Age cliché started up as an adventure tale -- was just starting its amazing run on the bestseller lists. At Total Multimedia Inc., it was practically required reading.
That's because TMM's new president Peter Olson swore by "Celestine" principles: how "energy fields" and "vibrations" and intuition can affect people and events. Olson -- a former executive at IBM and MCI -- says he was recruited to help turn around the struggling multimedia company. He considered it a "once-in-a-multiple-lifetime opportunity".