Comenius-Projekt 2010
Katharina Kesslau, 10F
Rise Against-Hero of war
Darling,
What’s going on at home? How are you and the kids? You can’t imagine, how great my longing to them is, and to you of course, my love. I always carry their picture in my heart, but it makes me feel so bad, that I can’t see them growing up. I evendon’t know how they’re looking today, but I’m sure they are as beautiful as you are. I missed so much,first steps, birthdays, school enrollment…
Does Kelly still visit dancing lessons? She obviously will be a great ballerina. And Leo, did you both visit the soccer match? Is he still dreaming of being a professional player?
Thinking of all my failures just makes me cry…
Nevertheless, I took this burden, because I wanted to, you know that honey. I chose this way, risking my life to change something in the world, to support this aim of my home country.Although I knew about the danger… Your love and all the sweet memories of our marriage, our honeymoon,…let me survivedark days and forget the cruel pictures of the suffering people momentarily. Small children shooting with guns. You can read the pain on their face!I must confess, war changed me. I never thought I’m a killer, but I am!! I shot at persons, I saw them screaming and falling on the ground, blood flowing all around them. And no one cares, no one will prepare a funeral, will cry at their graves.
Yesterday some terrorists attacked our camp! A bullet hit my belly, I wasn’t able to fight anymore. I just laid there on the barren ground. Mercifully I lost my mind and didn’t wake up until I was at the camp hospital. They patched me up as well as they could, but the doctor said I only have some days left…. Darling, I won’t come back to you and the kids!
Please, care for the children, tell them that I love them.
It’s breaking my heart, that they’ll have no memories of me, because they were too young when I left.
You were the only woman I’ve ever loved. I don’t want you to live alone the rest of your life, the only thing I want is that you’ll remember me as the person I was, when I kissed you the last time before the plane started.
I love you,
Paul